I dont know what my feelings are right now. I'm lost, so lost. Phew!!! There's a whole jumbled and clashing thoughts on my mind, and I just cant sort it out, or even differentiate it. Ughh so caught up. Dear God, can You make it easier for me?

Finally able to speak out what I had in mind for a couple of days back, and the result is kinda ... ummm [darn! I dont even know what I expect!!]. I do know one thing, I just need someone to turn over to, a cozy couch, the one that can except my sincere feelings, and chase my worries away, who can understands me, respect me, care for me. Someone who can simply make me feel special, once more.

Ugh.. this fax machine is driving me nuts! I do think that girls always want to have a man by their side who they can be proud of when we're walking down the street or something. One who can make you feel secure with your vintage look, no make-up face, casual hair do, and just a simple smile to get along with. How I miss those feelings ...

At this point of time, I do think that I ask too much for myself. But is it wrong to have faith on something that aren't even yours, yet? I dont know why I can believe in someone too much. I believe there's a good thing in everybody. I really do. But if it's not meant to happen, then it wont happen. Right? Or I say this just to justify my worries and fear? I really want to be happy again.